Actually, You Aren’t Enough

You Are Enough.

Those three words frustrate me. I don’t always believe in them. For some of us, the goal of perfection has been a burden for quite some time. Some of us jokingly say things like I’m just a perfectionist or I just like to do it right the first time.

Okay. I actually say those things all the time. But, when I fail, I kick myself and sulk. I restart the self-loathing process:

Step 1: Doubt my skills.

Step 2: Envy others who do what I do – seemingly better.

Step 3: Repeat.

Thanks to Twitter, I find myself scrolling through update after update from others who appear to be the champions and celebrities of Student Affairs. Heck, maybe some feel the same way when they peruse my statuses. My self-worth gets tied up into everything I haven’t done, and into every year of experience I don’t have in my field.

I end up not feeling like enough. As if there’s a course on adding more to my personality and my character. Honestly, I wouldn’t want to be someone else, but feeling like I don’t measure up is unsettling. 

I tell all this to my support system. They remind me of my strengths, they challenge me to think about my accomplishments, and they push back on my negative thought patterns.

My hope is that each of us has had at least one moment when someone affirmed that what we do/who we are is a good fit for life, let alone our jobs. We haven’t all written an e-book, taught a course, researched/discovered a theory, or presented on a national scale. Do we have to?

When it comes down to it, it might be worth something to ask: “What do I actually want to do” rather than “What should I be doing because x.  (x can equal: “it sounds good” ; “others have done it”; “it will get me to the next step”)” I say all this and yet I struggle with feeling like less on some days. It’s part negative thoughts, part my own lived history, and part misguided perspectives on what matters.

On good days, I know I am enough. I feel great doing what I do best: connecting, motivating, and inspiring others. There’s a pep in my step and tiny blue cartoon birds sit on my shoulder. I like the person I see in the mirror and I know I am enough. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m doing what I enjoy without comparing myself others, or if it’s because people-time gives me an endorphin rush, but I like myself in those moments.

I feel like enough when a student opens up to me and confides in me after being reserved for several months. It happens when a co-worker invites me over for dinner. I’m reassured I am enough when I am able to contribute in important meetings, help develop curriculum, successfully run a staff selection, or inspire someone to accept just a little bit about themselves because they listened to my story.

We have done more and are more than we’ll ever know. It’s the grandiose acts, the prolific writings, the innovative ideas generated, and the chart topping accomplishments. It’s the small things and it’s that which exist in the in-between that matters as well. We get to decide what and who defines us.

We get to live a better story for ourselves and others. And on the good days, because there are good days, we get to note that we are enough. Sometimes self-acceptance only exist in a few hiccups of hope at a time.

My hope is that we take hold to those moments, gather them, and tuck them away. Eventually, they will override all the lies we’ve been told about being less than. Sometimes, hiccups will have to do. I’m going to reflect more on being okay with the enough that I am.

What’s your story?

About The Author

Sinclair P Ceasar III

Sinclair Ceasar is a Christian mental health speaker, writer, and facilitator.

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  1. love this, Sinclair! keep writing 🙂

    1. Thank you so much, Sabina!

  2. You really need to read Brene Brown, Daring Greatly. I know I told you this months ago, but you still need to read it! 🙂 Keep being awesome!

    1. If you send it to me, I’ll read it! I’ve watched several of her videos and appreciate her work. I’m looking forward to the summer release of her new book. What do you like about Brene, Emily?

    2. Her book “The Gifts of Imperfection” is awesome too!

      1. Daring Greatly is my favorite. Have you read that one Crystal?

  3. Glad to see you’ve opened up your own shop! Looking forward to more!

    1. Thanks, James! I appreciate that.

  4. Reblogged this on Ardith Laverne and commented:
    Someone had to say it, and say it well. I’ve been trying to live in the moment, trying to celebrate each little step forward, and to think critically about what I truly want and hope for myself in this life. Nothing is 100% certain, that’s for sure, and nothing will come without failure. But failure doesn’t come without trying, and that’s the important part right now.

    1. Thank you so much for saying this! I’m glad I had the opportunity to say it. I’m hoping I can keep trying, each day. Look forward to reading your posts as well, Ardith.

  5. It’s easy to get caught up in everyone else’s highlight reels. We all have different paths and each of us gets to decide on what our own goals are each day. Those goals will continue to change and evolve as time goes on.

    “Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, ‘I will try again tomorrow.” – Mary Anne Radmacher

    1. Those are some very astute points, Anne. Love the quote on courage!

  6. I think we all go through times where we don’t think we are doing enough. It is important to work hard, but you have to enjoy the ride as well!

  7. […] But all any of that means is that I need to work on accepting who I am today, and realizing that I am enough. Fans, books, presentation/keynote invites don’t inform that – I […]

  8. Just found you – and I’m grateful for your voice and willingness to share it.

    1. Grateful to be connected to you too, Caryn!

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