We can have everything we need in life, and still feel like crap. Our bills can be paid. Our jobs can be awesome. Our friends can be the most amazing people in the universe. But, we can still find ourselves feeling unsettled, upset, or depressed.
This isn’t about being ungrateful.
It’s about watching everything in your life fall into place while negative messages float through your brain…
“This is great, but I want more.”
“I feel like I’m not doing enough.”
“I don’t deserve any of this.”
“People will think I’m weak if I step away from all this. But, I really need a break. I can’t keep this up.”
“I have so much now, but if I make one mistake, this will all go away. I can’t mess this up. I can’t.”
So many of us are silently suffering. Some of us our grieving. Some of us are working to heal our wounds. Some of us are just trying to get out of bed every day and be a person. But, people don’t always get this or take the time to understand. They’re confused when we’re not feeling okay, especially when our lives appear to be in good shape.
The reality is that our insides don’t always match our circumstances. They don’t have to. Mine haven’t.
Things have been going really well for me lately. Improv is awesome. Family life is great. My health is on the up and up. At the same time, I’ve had some intense moments with my anxiety. Between the shortness of breath, and racing thoughts, I have no idea of how I’ve been able to show up to life. Prayer has helped. Rest has helped. But, it’s been rough. At some point, I realized that it’s okay for me to feel successful and a little terrible at the same time. It’s okay for me to have bad days and bad weeks.
It’s okay to not feel okay.
It’s okay to be afraid of losing that new person you’re with, or gaining back all that weight you just lost. It’s okay to be doing well in school, and at the same time be experiencing family issues that have your mind in two places. There’s no such thing as perfection.
There is a such thing as beating yourself up for not being perfect.
You’re never going to be perfect. None of us are. Even on the best day of your life, things will still get messy and go wrong.
I’m the kind of person who overthinks so much that it’s difficult for me to even leave the house in the morning. I don’t want things to go wrong. I’m not comfortable with the fact that life is in constant flux
Part of me realizes that we get to show up to this messy world with frowns on our faces, tears in our eyes, and pain in our hearts. We get to come as we are, even on days when we’re called to smile and be positive, because no one should be expected to be happy all the time. No one should be expected to have it all together.
You don’t have to have it all together, despite what others say.
You don’t have to keep smiling and responding with: “I can’t complain” when someone asks you how you’re doing.
Be honest the next time someone asks you about your day. Don’t be afraid to bring the mood down. Allow the other person to make room for your energy, and be open enough to make room for theirs.
Part of what fuels the stigma around mental illness, is a culture that views anyone having a bad day as weak, abnormal, or in need of a stiff drink. We need to spend more time with our emotions, and with the emotions of others. We need to share more. We need to empathize with others more. We need to hear the stories of those who are hurting (which is most people you interact with on a daily basis).
We get to be real with each other, because real is what a lot of us need and want.
Your feelings are valid. Your hurt is valid. Your hope is valid. And you, all of you, is who we need to survive.
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